OCD Perks? Could I actually be thankful for my OCD? First, this isn’t me taking it lightly. Second, I would rather love the chance to take OCD lightly. What an accomplishment that would be.
I have suffered with OCD for over 20 years. It wasn’t until 2008 that I even considered recovery as an option. I tell my stories of OCD for the purpose of recovery.
Which is why I would like to consider the option of this ailment having the capability of making me stronger. Instead of weaker.
Magic Lies in Challenging What Seems Impossible:
OCD seems pretty impossible to overcome. You’ve seen it, you’ve dealt with it. If we didn’t view it as impossible, then our recovery would have completed decades ago. We’ve all had our wins. We challenge the booger monster everyday. It’s a booger – You achoo it away until it peekaboos its slimy head in your face again later.
I want the win. It feels good to win. If we really win, like… really really win, we can harness that magic. “Abracadabra! Disappear peekabooger!” For that reason alone is a lovely thought. Wouldn’t that be a magical feeling?
Yeah, I want to be thankful for this opportunity at magic as a result. This might be an OCD perk. We claim it to be impossible, so we deal and cope. Our compulsions go to battle for us. It gets the opportunity to face off with fear, stealing our opportunity at our magic.
That is our win. That is our magic it is stealing. We have to be the ones to challenge our impossible. That opportunity can likewise be looked at as a perk, and OCD could be a gateway to magic.
No One Gets Very Far Unless They Accomplish The Impossible At Least Once A Day:
If you want to stay put, fine. I’ve been there. I’ve locked myself in with no attempts to do. It sucks. A very sucky feeling that scares the piss out of me. We need to do. Doing is what brings joy. Doing for others and doing for yourself. To not go far, to not go anywhere, even by choice, flat out sucks.
We have our shot at impossible daily. Go compulsion free, go ahead… resist. It’s terrifying when we’re faced with it. It seems impossible to go long periods of time avoiding our rituals. But we can dismiss them. Each dismissal represents a win right there. Maybe those are OCD perks for those who feel perkless. To keep grabbing wins, keep doing, and to keep accomplishing.
Fear is globally looked at as ‘bad’. Us OCdoers understand that very well. It’s how we look at fear though. Fear stands in front of us, blocking the needed path. Compulsions push us from behind finding alternate paths around.
This is our daily impossible – To set compulsion aside for us to step through our fear. We attempt to accomplish this daily – Dismissing the compulsions. Because if we can, then we become empowered. That is our win in our hands, and not compulsion’s.
When I read the following two quotes, I think of my compulsions stealing all the joy:
‘We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as Impossible situations’ – Charles R Swindoll
‘It’s kind of fun to do the Impossible’ – Walt Disney
Everything You Want Is On The Other Side Of Fear:
We are fearful, we all are. OCD magnifies our fears. Fear is one thing, fear of fear makes this obsession constant. Of course we are supposed to be on alert for that which scares us. That is part of being human.
OCD is the fear before fear. It’s why we deal with so much anxiety. We are challenged before the challenge is even presented. OCD sucks. It holds us back. OCD Perks? Pssh, it’s all how you look at it.
Einstein said ‘We cannot solve our problems with the same thinking we used when we created them’. OCD is a problem, it limits our potential. Yet we revert back to it’s thinking for power. Rethink, reevaluate its power. Fear doesn’t know your strength, maybe that’s its way of testing you. This could very well be a part of our greatness.
So… If OCD is fear before fear, that means it stands right in front between us and fear. Guiding us from behind would be compulsion. This would mean in order to get to our magic, to accomplish the impossible, for all of the best things in life, compulsions can not be our guide.
OCD Perks?
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Each compulsion is an opportunity to challenge impossible.
Each compulsion is a chance for us to grab a win.
Magic is what’s on the other side of each of those compulsions. Compulsions aren’t the magic, but they sure are the ones witnessing ours.
To be honest, I have an incredible urge to erase this entire post. That’s what I do. I write, and I erase when I fear the backlash of my words. Those with OCD don’t look at it as a having perks. I don’t look at it as having perks, but I would like to.
I am so tired from all of the negativity OCD brings. UGH OCD! We know that it holds us back though. I’m tired of the compulsions flexing its muscles and pushing us around.
What if there could be a positive spin and take OCD… lightly?
Let me know if you found this helpful. I am curious to hear your spin. Leave a comment or find me on Twitter @UghOCD or Instagram @brentleybigkid.
